Are you there G-D? It's me, Rachel
Updated: Jul 30
In my life, I turn to G-D for comfort and advice. I am sure that there are others of you that do too. When things go wrong all of the sudden, many choose to see that it is in the hands of G-D. When things go well, we turn to G-D to thank him/her. I want to also acknowledge that not everyone believes in a higher power or G-D, and for them they lean on other outlets during emotional times.
The reason I bring up this topic is because of the recent developments going on around the world. The coronavirus has flipped everyone’s world upside down, and from a student perspective it has become so hard to stay engaged in my learning. My initial thought when the first case appeared a couple months ago was, “it’s just another disease going around like the flu,” and as it started to spread, I freaked out.
I began to ease my nerves through self care routines (facemask, tea, and a bubble bath), and I gained a lot of clarity on the situation. However, there was one question I still could not figure out the answer to… Why did G-D let this happen?
Through studying my Judaism and reflecting on the customs, I have noticed that G-D seems to be the rescuer for many people. For example, when the Jewish people were fleeing Pharoah, G-D split the sea of reeds for Moses and the Jewish people so that they could escape to freedom.
As the spread of the virus continues, I continue to lose hope in my ability to pray to G-D to make things better. Every night I make sure I tell G-D what/who I am thankful for as well as thanking G-D himself/herself for everything he/she has done for me. In the past couple months, I find myself being thankful for less and less in my life. I felt a bit lost to be honest.
I think in this case, I have let my fear and anxiety take over which has hindered my faith in G-D’s abilities. So as I sit here on my couch in Tennessee for spring break, I decided I would take the time to truly reflect on this experience and think of the things in my life that I am thankful for.
I was taught as a young girl that I always have something to be thankful for. My family on Shabbat thinks of something we are thankful for after we say the blessings over the candles, a ritual we do on Shabbat to welcome in the day of rest. Instead of just practicing this on Shabbat, I wanted to try to engage in being thankful any chance that I got.
Here are some things I am thankful for: My parents, my grandparents, my sister, my adorable cat asia (pictured below) , my boyfriend Joseph (pictured below), my rabbi, my education, and most importantly my ability to connect my body, mind, and heart.
The point I want to make here is that no matter what life throws at us, have faith that everything will turn out okay. For those of you who are reading this and still freaking out, please remember that taking the time to reflect on what is going well is important.